The Journey

so what are you trying to say that us boys show the true feelings of love easy. well im glad i have you i actullay have nowhere to go
(also don;t forget Cyan's with you)

but if i didn't have you and those crazy cuties where would i be? nowhere actually...
i smile sort of and say: well ima girl so it's not easy to show

well you would not have to deal with me or the pups and it would not have happened again. but you act like you havn't learned the true feeling of love have you?

no im not saying that... even if we hadn't met that would've happened and i might've never leaned the true feeling of love again

im sorry that i messed up everything between you too. it would have been better if we had never met then is that what your trying to say then none of this would have happened. Also the pups are not alone... their with Falcon

i sigh: exactly what he meant... he's a spirit of my old... i guess almost my mate... I loved him so much... apperently he loved me and he thought i knew and he thought i betrayed him and forgot about him when i met you... he killed him and his brother over me... they both loved me and wanted me... He wanted that fued over so he killed himself and his brother...

what does he mean Crystal?

Arabian sighs: crystal tell him...

i growl: fine you win arabian...
he licks my cheek and then disappears into the sky...

what do you mean Arabian?
what are you talking about Crystal?

Arabian nudges me and says: maybe you should tell him who i really am...

i say: what type of mother leaves her pups alone without anyone... apparently me...

well its nice to meet you Arabian.
Yes i did have a mate before i met you but you know what we had pups okay but they all died*i break into tears and tell them the story*see im not a good father what type of father goes hunting and allows his family to die by hunters that was my mistake to let them die im going back to the den to help the remaining pups at least try to make though this winter.

the wolf says: im Arabian... crystal and i go far back...

I growl: so know you decide to show sympathy arabian! you just said you hate me!

Arabian sighs: you know i would never mean that... my feelings have never changed...

i say: snow my life is so complicated... and i'm not sure either of us can believe each other right now... we both know we had pasts loves or mistakes that we can't let go of...

Crystal i know i should have treated you better its my fault that you have like this im really sorry that all this happened but i love you. Um... who's that cuz i would like to know im not mad but who is that?

i say: i... i...

*A wolf walks up beside me*

i tell Cyan i know you do and im happy that you do.Um... Crystal im sorry about the way i treat you im sorry.

cyan growls: i love mama! missed her.. she's like my life!

I look at snow and stand up showing nothing in my eyes

*cyan travels miles before she finds me...*

cyan sees me and says: mama!

i now know what i need to do i run to where i hear the yelling and i get there and i see blood and i go to her and say Crystal, Cyan what are you doing here with so much love in my voice

Destiny says: face it cyan... mama hates us... we wont survive...

cyan crys: i love mom and i won't let her die alone! ima kill my self finding her if i have to *cyan runs to find crystal*

Arabian growls: what ever crystal! maybe everyone hates you cause of who you are! your a terrible person! Now I hate you!

As arabian leaves i start to cry... i howl: life hates me! my loved ones always betray me! I hate you world!

i feel something in my heart like a crack and i don't feel so good and i faint cuz my heart is breaking

Arabian- you do love him crystal.. i don't even know who you are any more...

Crystal- i'm not the girl who u used to know... i'm now just a loner without any life... my life is hating i guess...

arabian sighs: crystal lie down...

i growl: why?

he says: your hurt rest...

i look at a pool of blood flooding the snow staining it dark red...

i run to the den and i get there and then my leg starts to hurt and i look down and theres a big dog bite on my leg and its bleeding so i limp into the den and i find a spot and lie down and try to stop the bleeding

~back at the den~
destiny sighs: mama hates us...
Cyan says: no she doesn't she loves us... she always will... ima stay here until she comes back... i don't care if i freeze doing it

cyan says: i'm not going even with snow...
destiny sighs: you stay i stay

i scent mark the campsite and go back home to get the pups and bring them to a lot of food