The Journey

i tell Crystal but your weight on me come on use me as a crutch

i limp behind them

we walk home with Cyan on my back

i nod

your welcome come on lets go home
(its okay love you

i smile and i stand up i mutter: uh thanks snow...
(sorry for being gone for so long...)

i catch her right before she hits the ground
(okay see you then)

i guess...
i limp and then stumble
(i have to go i'll be back in like 45 min.)

ok then lets head on home were we belong

i say: nothing im fine... i think...

i ask Crystal whats wrong

i say: ok... i limp and look down the whole time

laughs yea lets go Crystal lets go

cyan squeaks: onward to victory

ok get on then lets take mommy back home

cyan squeaks: yes please

i blink and say: ummm.... no one... yea no one

who you talking to?
Cyan you what to get on my back?

.......

a voice rings in my head: crystal go ahead...
i whisper: ok arabian...

come on i will share some of my with you lets go they waiting for you they think that you don't love them you need to show that you do

i say: i don't have the courage to

they do come on i will prove to you lets go home

i laugh a little then frown and say: i doubt they do...

teases back:at we boys are better at um... something
they don't hate you they all love so much you need to see that
yes you do Cyan

i tease: well its easier then with girls...

i say:neither do i... i can't go back to the den... the pups hate me...

Cyan protests: i don't i wuv u!